Friday, December 31, 2010

2010. whatayear.

Painting Class. Learning Spanish. John Mayer in Concert. Building a Snowman that was taller than myself. Finding that people aren't always who they say they are. You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown. Turning 22 years old. Riding on the Crazy Roller coaster of Life. Random Roadtrip to the Beach. Spa Day with my Momma. NOLA with Erin for the afternoon. Picking up Brooke from the Airport. Ending my Concert Choir Career. Saying Good-Bye to JCJC. Beach trip with some Pretty Girls. Singing in one of my Bestest Friends weddings. Moving to Flowood. Living with my Precious Cousins. Meeting Amazing People at Pinelake. Spending time with Mammaw. Learning to let go. Super Summer Camp. Finding out what makes me Happy. Witnessing my Sweet Friend marry her Best Friend. Moved into my own Apartment. Watching Sarah Anne Cheer. Realizing I make mistakes. Also, Realizing its okay. Hanging out with people from Jones who are at State now. I'm a Deacon's Daughter. Meeting Cameron for the First time. Spending time with my Parents. Not celebrating Halloween. Loving my Job. Figuring out what my plans are. Trying to figure out what God has Planned. The Mountains for Thanksgiving with the Family. Praying, Alot. Going on Dates. Eric Church in Concert. Learning how to Cook. Spoiling Sarah Anne for a Day. Loving on Kaylan & Making Eric laugh. Almost moved to Nashville(maybe this summer). Having friends over at my Apartment. Enjoying the Hot tub in 20 degree weather. Going to see The Nutcracker with Momma. Christmas Parade & Christmas in Canton with Momma. Waking up on Christmas Morning, Feeling like a kid again. Bonfire with Sisters. Working out.Loving Life. Loving Myself.

Can't wait to see what 2011 brings! Happy New Year, Everyone! May All Your Dreams Come True! :)


Thursday, December 30, 2010

in my dreams.

in my dreams, i dream of the guy who will watch old movies with me. who will listen to me. who will make me so happy. who will know that he is the luckiest guy in the world.
in my dreams, i dream that i am on stage singing my heart out. loving the feeling of the moment. looking out into a crowd of smiling faces.
in my dreams, i dream that i am walking with my pappaw. fishing with him. hugging him so tightly. laughing until we cry. talking his ears off.
in my dreams, i dream that i am living on a beach. i have a yellow beach house. over looking the beautiful waves. enjoying every sunrise & sunset.
in my dreams, i dream i am a princess. with a dress & tiara on. in a field of daisies. loving the smell of the fresh air.
in my dreams, i dream i truly find myself. find the person i'm suppose to be. what i will be when i grow up. most important, i find who God wants me to be.

one day my dreams will come true. until then, i'll keep dreaming. i love to dream.

Monday, December 20, 2010

What Christmas is all about. :)

while wrapping presents, i came across A Charlie Brown Christmas. i love charlie brown.
this is only the end of it, but i thinkits the best part. :) Enjoy! & Merry Christmas!

Happy Birthday, Jesus!

this little girl is just precious. i've seen this video before, and i wanted to share.
hope you enjoy! :)

Only a few more days. :)

it is monday, i am wrapping presents & getting things together. wednesday i'm going to flowood, i really can't wait. friday is Christmas Eve. Saturday is Christmas. :) this is gonna be a wonderful week i must say.

this past weekend was a fun time. my momma & i went to Christmas in Canton. it was like a santa land, so magical and full of life. we rode on the horse & buggy, went to some little cute shops on the square, purchased some yummy coffee & beignets, sat on a balcony to see the full view of the square of lights & people. it was just another thing to get me even more in the Christmas mood. i definitely have been in the mood for over a month now. i just love it, who doesn't?

yesterday at church, i surprised my momma with singins a song she had wanted me to do. she loved it. and last night we had our Christmas cantata, it was such a blessing.

"The perfect tree
Grew very long ago
And it was not decked with silver
Or with ornaments of gold
But hanging from it's branches
Was a gift for you and me
Jesus laid His life down
On the perfect tree....
With all the celebrations
Sometimes the truth is lost
That every step this baby took
Brought Him closer to the cross

this was some of the lyrics i sang in my solo. as i was singing them it gave me chills. with all of the different traditions, even i get caught up in them at times, but when it all comes down to it. Jesus is the reason for the season. He truely is. He is so precious and beautiful in everyway. and then He gave His life for me & you. what a wonderful gift. :)

have a wonderful monday & take a look at the video above, of that precious little girl. you"ll love it :)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

sweetest guy.

today is my bubba's birthday. he's always been the sweetest guy i've ever known. we have a lot of memories growing up together. some funny ones, bad ones, sad ones, & proud ones.
going to the beach every summer since we were little, going to mammaw & papaw allen's every afternoon after school, playing outside in the dirt with our toy cars, riding bicycles down the road and just goofing off. and yes, as brother & sister we would fight a little. haha. but after it was over, we always knew that we loved each other.
throughout the years, he's always done his best to be there for me in every way he could. and i have also. he's a tough guy and has a big heart for his family & friends. one day, he's gonna get the girl of his dreams. i know God is working on that for him, he just has to be patient. God is good at working on things we need to improve in.
well, i'm gonna leave you with some pictures of me & my bubba.


Friday, December 10, 2010

15 days.

15 days until Christmas!! sooo close.

to me this week flew by. everyone around me would tell me it seem to go by so slow. who knows about that, but it just seem to me to go super duper fast.

this week, i had a "girls night in" with one of my dearest friends. we worked out, went to the sauna & the hot tub (it took a little bit for the sauna to heat up), then we watched a chick flick & had brownies. it was a great night. we talked about alot of things. we both told each other "we are young, single with good heads on our shoulders. why not explore & take chances? you only live once." soooo who knows where i might be the first of the year. alot of things are up in the air, i know God has a plan and whatever it is, i'm down. :))

on another note. today i was talking to sarah anne's mom, jennifer and was telling her that i would come down to flowood during Christmas break. my last day is friday (i'm so ready for a break, even if it is only for 2 weeks). jennifer told me that "sarah said she missed you last night. plus for some reason, she wants you to take her to build-a-bear. she's been talking about it. i am not sure where that came from though. haha" so there you have it, sometime during my break i will go down and take my sarah anne to build-a-bear workshop. isnt that just precious?! i just love her and miss her dearly. and that crazy eric coy and sweet kaylan mae too. :)

i'm not sure where i'm going in life, but i sure do love my Savior God, my Wonderful Family, & my Amazing Friends.

......jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way.......mmmm hot chocolate & Christmas music.....have a magical night.....bundle up, its cold.... :) nighty night....

Tuesday, December 7, 2010


so it is now 16 days until Christmas.
i'm loving it.

today was tuesday and it was a busy one. after work i went over to my sisters apt to watch the new glee. and what kind of episode was it? Christmas!! i loved it. they did a song from rudolph & the grinch. it made me happy.

then when i came back to my apt. i watch charlie brown Christmas on my computer. i love that one too. the classics are the best.

what are your favorite Christmas movies? :)

Monday, December 6, 2010


sooo i have skipped a few days and i am sorrryyy!! this weekend was busy for me, but also eventful!
friday night, i went home to decorate the tree. i have this tradition every year, where i watch the cartoon grinch in the midst of decorating the tree. i love the cartoon, its always been one of my favorties since i was a little girl. i must say that the trees outcome was beautiful. :)
saturday, momma & i had a day. shopping alllllllll day in flowood and then went to see The Nutcraker Ballet. it was a beautiful day and the ballet was so wonderful. we were on the third row, feeling like children all over again. if you havent ever been, i would suggest that you do.

it's absolutely magical. :)

i am now even more in the Christmas mood! and it is now 17 days until Christmas! :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

tis the season.

tis the season to be jolly...
its the most wonderful time of the year...
baby, its cold outside...
the music feels the air, the lights shine bright, and you feel like a kid again.
i must say i love this season just like a million others. its a special time of year, so many memories come back to mind. i've been thinking of something to blog about today, and i decided i would write everyday until Christmas. so its 25 days until Christmas. well this day is almost over so 24 now. my wish list for Christmas. 25 things i'd like, maybe i'll fulfill the list.

1. bubbles.
2. snickerdoodle cookies.
3. mason jar of daisies.
4. care bear gummie bears.
5. itunes card.
6. painting supplies.
7. joe jonas. ;)
8. yellow beach house.
9. red toms.
10. spend time with mammaw.
11. star certificate.
12. new cowbow boots.
13. charlie brown christmas movie.
14. joico shampoo.
15. ralph lauren hoodie.
16. hugs from my cousins.
17. blueberry pound cake.
18. ugg moccasins
19. belle tshirt.
20. photoshoot with my sisters.
21. see the movie morning glory.
22. meet haley williams.
23. beauty & the beast on dvd.
24. catch a glimpse of santa on Christmas eve.
25. be home with my family.

i may not get any of this, but hey a girl can dream. i love dreaming, makes life just that much more fun! :)

still cant believe its 25 days until Christmas. :) ah, i love it!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

old times there are not forgotten.

Oh, I wish I was in the land of cotton,
Old times there are not forgotten,
Look away, look away, look away Dixie Land.

I wish I was in Dixie, Hooray! Hooray!
In Dixie Land I'll take my stand
to live and die in Dixie.
Away, away, away
down south in Dixie.
Away, away, away down south in Dixie.

At the Grove, and On the Field, we are Rebels.
to the End. As one united voice we cheer.
Hotty Toddy, Gosh Almighty! ;)

I Will Always Be Proud To Be An Ole Miss Rebel!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

give thanks.

this weekend was kind of a wake up call for me. i realized that maybe one day i will move there, just not now. i realized that although i miss it there, it is not where i need to be and the life i had when i was there, is now a part of my past. i am so thankful for all of my frienships i made there. all the memories that i made. most of all, i am thankful of how much i have grown up and of how much i have grown in my Faith.

today was my last day of work for the week. i didnt have much to do, so it was a laid back day. i am thankful that i have a job. i am thankful that i can pay my rent on time and still have a little extra for myself.

tonight i was talking to a dear friend, she reminded of how special i am. how beautiful i am, inside & out, and how there is absolutely no one like me, here on this earth. i am so thankful that God sends friends like that, when He knows i need it the most.

tomorrow will be the start of my break. me and the family are going to the mountains until saturday. its gonna be nice to be with momma, daddy, & bubba for a few days. i have to say i'm ready for some good homecooking, also. i am thankful for my family. i wouldnt have them any other way. never let anyone go without them knowing how much they are loved and how much you appreciate them.

be sure to give thanks this Thanksgiving. don't skip over thanksgiving and go straight to Christmas. we do have many things to be Thankful for.
Gobble, Gobble!
Happy Thanksgiving!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010


i feel like i'm around children all the time.
which i usually am, and i love it. my aunt owned a daycare for over 15 years. i have 6 cousins from the age of 8 yrs til 3 months. i have worked in 3 daycares and babysat many times. i also sponser a child from guatemala, named Edwin.

i really do love children, and one day i would love to have my own. "my own" meaning i would love to adopt. i've never really been a huge fan of the whole pregnancy deal. getting fat, getting sick, having weird moods, and the pain. i'm not the best person to deal with pain. to be honest, i'm quite the baby. my momma says i will change my mind one day, when i'm married and all. who knows, maybe i will. have one child and adopt 2. thats good, i think. :)

despite all of THAT. i do more than anything, i would love to adopt. i've always thought of the adoption process so precious. its something i've thought about doing for a really long time. i would love to adopt a baby from Guatemala and China. there are so many babies in this world that need a mommy & daddy. someone to love them, to keep them safe, & to always be there. i cant imagine my life without my parents. my sister/best friend was adopted and she has the best life & is an amazing lady. adoption is a long process, but i believe it is such a wonderful & special process.

i know one day, i will adopt.

change the world one step at a time.
be the change you wish to see in this world.~Mahatma Gandhi
And whoever welcomes one such child in
my name welcomes me. Matthew 18:5

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

one day.

these are a few places i would like to go.
i'm sick today. dumb stomach virus.
so this is the result of feeling bad and being bored.
i decided to blog and try to feel better.

"You’ll be on your way up!
You’ll be seeing great sights!
You’ll join the high fliers who soar to high heights..."

"You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself any direction you choose.
You’re on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go...."

"Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So…get on your way!

Oh, the places you’ll go! There is fun to be done!"
~dr. seuss
maybe one day i'll go to all these wonderful places.

Thursday, November 4, 2010


lately ive been wanting lots of things.

this morning i woke up wanting a biscuit & coffee.
i want to go to the beach. soon.
"i want you to want me..."
i want to color my hair red. again.
i want, i want, i want....

its so easy to always want something, isn't it?
funny how God works, because this morning my devotion was just on that.
i want to share.

This comes out of Mark 15:15

"Pilate himself wanted to be accepted and satisfy the crowd. The crowd wanted Jesus crucified. Jesus wanted to set the captives free and Barabbas wanted to get out of prison. Who really got what they wanted?

Well, Pilate didn't totally believe in the choice he made. He wanted to set Jesus free, but also wanted to be satisfy the crowd. He couldn't have it both ways so he only got half of what he wanted.

Then there's the crowd, and more specifically the chief priests, who wanted Jesus to go away and not be a problem for them anymore. They may have thought they got what they wanted, but not only did Jesus come back from the dead, His resurrection started a revolution that multiplied beyond anything the priests and crowds had to deal with before. So in reality, they never got rid of Jesus so they didn't get what they wanted.

Barabbas got what he wanted though. He wanted to live. He wanted to be free. He got both because of Jesus. And millions of others as bad or worse than that murderer Barabbas have found life and freedom because of Jesus.
Which means that Jesus got what he wanted too. He wanted people to believe, to trust in Him, to be set free, to find life in Him - and we have.

You and I were just like Barabbas at one point....guilty, hopeless, sentenced to die. And yet, somehow, someone named Jesus gave us AND HIM exactly what we both wanted: Life and Freedom. Remember that next time you think you didn't get what you wanted."

we may not always receive what we want, but we will always have Jesus. He's something everyone wants. should want.

something i've been wanting to do for a while came true today.

i've been wanting to i speak to my sweet friend on the phone, and i did. her phone calls me all the time, but she never really calls. haha. i really do miss her. she's the best girl. i don't know what i'd do without her sometimes. i couldn't ask for a better sweet friend.

well thats all for now.
i hope you all have a lovely night.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


today was a day of rememberance.
5 years ago today, my papaw passed away.
he was the best. he was always there for me.
he taught me how to fish, drove me to get my drivers permit,
& always around to listen to me.
him & mammaw never missed me singing at church nor in a show.
he use to always call me his #1 granddaugther.
i was the first granddaugther out of 3 grandsons.
my memory of that day is very clear.
i had been in class that morning,
my mom had signed me out for a reason that was
she met me on the sidewalk, to tell me the
i fell onto the pavement and lost it.
that morning he walked to the mailbox. when he came back into the house,
he felt short of breath. he sat down in the first chair, then he moved
to his chair. just like that, he was gone. he left this world. his heart had fallen without notice.
as i grew up, i stayed over with them often.
waking up, i would always hear him say "good morning, sleeping beauty".
i miss that.
i miss his laugh.
i miss his jokes.
i miss him.
i know he is in a better place. he is so happy now.
i'm pretty sure that he fishes everyday. that man sure loved to fish. i wish i could still fish with him but i know i will again one of these days. as i spoke to my mammaw tonight on the phone, she brought me to tears. she reminded me of how much he loved & adored me. how he was so proud of me. so proud that i was his. his number 1 granddaugther.
i will always be his #1 Granddaugther. :)
i love you forever & always, papaw.

Sunday, October 31, 2010


this is my roomie.
we've been friends since the 7th grade. after high school we both went our separate ways. she went to alabama & i went down south. even though for the past 3 years we have been atleast 6 hrs apart, we always seemed to keep up with each other. when we were both home for the weekend or holidays, we would always see each other at some point.
its funny how God works, because we are both now 30 minutes away from home and living together. and to make it even more interesting, we both are single and trying to figure out what we should do for the rest of our lives. God has definitely been showing us a few things in the last month. we are both loving our lives at this moment & time though.
God closes doors, so that new ones can be opened. we will soon see what new doors open.

until then, we keep smiling, laughing, & having fun in the new adventures. :)
hope you all have a fun & eventful week! :)


Friday, October 22, 2010

my heart.

i went to visit my little cousins last week. i sure have missed them. they have grown so much since a month ago, when i last saw them. they are my heart.

sarah anne is cheering this year and i really couldnt be more excited, that she wants to be a cheerleader. she use to say "when i grow up, i'm gonna be a cheerleader just like kerwy." and just let me tell you, it melts my heart that she is a cheerleader. she is doing so well with all the cheers and has a great kart-wheel. she has become such a big girl. :)

kaylan is growing way too fast. she's starting to talk more clearly and walking like a pro. she has the best little laugh and the biggest smile you've ever seen. she's just a sweetie and a beautiful one at that. :)

eric is such a big boy now. he can make you laugh in a minute and has the funniest smile at the moment(he has a few teeth missing)ha. he loves baseball like no other 8 year old i've ever known and he knows everything. he's so smart. he will always be that little boy that i held when he came into this world. so precious and charming. i just love him. :)

sarah anne had her pageant tonight. i wasnt able to make it because of work. dumb, yes i know. i did call her and told her she looked so beautiful! i will be able to see them tomorrow at msu's homecoming and i'm really excited to see them all. :)

even though i'll be at state's game, i still love my rebs. yes, thats right, i said rebs. they WILL always be the rebels. no one can take it away from my heart. nor my mouth. ha! Hotty Toddy! :)

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!! :)


Wednesday, October 6, 2010


so i am missing these precious little girls.
i love them with my whole heart.
and i am soooo ready to seem them really soon.

they grow more and more everyday.
love my sweet lil cousins.
have a great Wednesday!

Thursday, September 23, 2010


Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
And was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, oh, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song
Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place
Oh, why? There's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain?
Oh, but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?
They were wrong, they lied, and now you're gone, and we cried
Cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song

this song came to mind last week.
i heard that young guy, only 19 had committed suicide. only a few days of moving to starkville, a young boy, only in the 10th grade had also done the same.
i didnt really know the two young men, but some of my friends knew them. it brought me to tears. there are always so many questions you want to ask. why? why would they do this to themselves? what were they going through?
you really never know whats going on in people's lives, you just have to smile at them and love everyone. no matter what your day brings, keep a smile on your face. it just might turn someone's life around.
strive to be more like Christ everyday.
to anyone who has lost loved ones due to this, i am deeply sorry for that loss. i cant imagine the pain.

Psalm 34:18
"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit."