Thursday, September 23, 2010


Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
And was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, oh, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song
Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place
Oh, why? There's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain?
Oh, but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?
They were wrong, they lied, and now you're gone, and we cried
Cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song

this song came to mind last week.
i heard that young guy, only 19 had committed suicide. only a few days of moving to starkville, a young boy, only in the 10th grade had also done the same.
i didnt really know the two young men, but some of my friends knew them. it brought me to tears. there are always so many questions you want to ask. why? why would they do this to themselves? what were they going through?
you really never know whats going on in people's lives, you just have to smile at them and love everyone. no matter what your day brings, keep a smile on your face. it just might turn someone's life around.
strive to be more like Christ everyday.
to anyone who has lost loved ones due to this, i am deeply sorry for that loss. i cant imagine the pain.

Psalm 34:18
"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit."


Thursday, September 16, 2010


Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
William Shakespeare

everybody has there own opinion of "love" and so do i.
to be honest, i dont know what love is yet. mainly because i haven't got to that point in my life. the love i know of and have in my heart is for my family & friends. this kind of love is precious. no one could ever take that love away.
but perhaps, that isnt the kind of love i want to talk about today. i looked up "what is love?" and this is what one of the websites said:
"What is love? It is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind. Centuries have passed by, relationships have bloomed and so has love. But no one can give the proper definition of love. To some Love is friendship set on fire for others Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it. No matter how you define it or feel it, love is the eternal truth in the history of mankind. Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life. Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it. It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true."

every little girl dreams of there prince charming. and being a girl, i know ive always had in my head of what i have wanted. as i have gotten older, some of those dreams have changed. only one that i can remember hasn't changed. i still want a great, Christian guy, who can be as sweet as my daddy.

i have always been a picky person. with my food, with my clothes, and even more with guys. so, when a girl is picky & has high standards, she usually doesnt have many boyfriends. i have had only 3, and in those 3 relationships i have grown more mature and wiser. the prince charming that i had in my mind when i was 5, isnt exactly the same as it is now. although, i would like to find a love that is like the movies, i know it will be even better when i find a love of my own. a love that is unshakable, a love that will grow, a love that will last. i know one day it will happen, because God has wonderful plans for me.
until that day, My Father in heaven & my daddy, who is only 30 minutes away from me, will be my prince charming. :)

"you stand by me.
i'm forever yours.

Have a wonderful night!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

i am nothing.

i am who God says i am.
i know He has a path for me.
i am living in Starkville now.
i know its a start of something grand.
i am praying hard that i get this youth minister job.
i know it is what God has for me to do.
i am a single, 22 year old lady.
i know God has an amazing guy planned just for me.
i am a deacon's daughter.
i know my daddy is going to be amazing. love that man.
i am a picky person.
i know one day i will get over it.
i am addicted to old things.
i know one day i will have lots of old things.
i am in love with music.
i know i cant go through a day without it.
i am not perfect.
i know i will mess up. even when i dont realize it.
i am sassy.
i know i can control it.
i am really close to my momma.
i know she will always be here for me. loves her.
i am in love with my best friend.
i know He will never leave me.
i am nothing.
i know i have to decrease, for Him to increase.

every one of these lines starts with i.
its not all about me. its all about Him.
we have to realize that everyday.
Him 1st. Others 2nd. You last.


Wednesday, September 8, 2010

red & blue will always stay true.

i love my rebs. they will always be called the rebels no matter how many times they try and try to change it. its the south and its history. the end.
no matter what anyone says about my rebels, i will never betray them by going to the dark side. even though i am moving to starkville, i will never say "go the other team." i just cant. it is not in me to do it. if any of you truely know me, you know this is true. i have been to state football games, basketball games, and baseball games. i have lived 20 mins away from starkville my entire life. and still til this day, cant make myself say those words.
my heart is for The OLE MISS REBELS Forever. i bleed red & blue.
that is all. thanks for reading. :)))

Have a great day! Hotty Toddy! :)